26. Drug that kills

Monday, February 1

I know you don't love me so much anymore, I only wish there was some part I could restore. 

I'll give up anything just to feel you again.

Just a moment respite from the hell I live in. If there's anything I could say to you, let it be this, it's only everything about you that I miss. 

I know that the way I see you isn't the way you see me. I can see that slow lost of feel and that's what makes me even more sad. 

I wanted you to be there for this special day of me entering officially to a new nationality and you said no. 

That adds pain to the already beat down me.